Things are doing a bit better. I’ve gotten my landlady to lighten up a bit, and she’s gotten much better at directing her anger where it’s supposed to go- usually the other boarder- rather than toward me. In addition to that, we finally cleared up where one of her weirder recurring accusations was coming from- namely, that I was “bringing evil into her house”. Turns out she thought I was doing some creepy cult stuff because of the Devil’s Carnival poster on my bedroom wall, and once I finally pieced that together I explained that it was just a movie poster and even if it’s about the Christian Devil it’s just a horror movie. That satisfied her- she’s not actually religious herself at all, but she was really concerned about what I was doing, and as weird as the accusations still were, I’m just relieved that that’s over with.
My fingers are crossed that I’ll still be able to move out within a few months. Even if I’m not the direct recipient of any of the stuff going on in the house anymore, it’s still taking a pretty hard toll on me- my landlady and her son argue a lot, usually at night, when I’m trying to sleep, and she plays music way too loud on Friday and Saturday nights. This isn’t good for me when I have to work, and as a result I’m usually really exhausted and run-down come Monday- right in time for three days in a row where I have to get up at 5:45 AM. On top of that, the other boarder tends to be of zero help- he’s had his issues with the landlady too, and he takes them out on her pretty verbally abusively. Even when she’s not there to hear it, but I sure as hell can. He’s developed a habit of trying to use me as a kind of rhetorical human shield while arguing with her, trying to make it sound like we’re a united front against her. We’re pretty sure it’s because he and I are white and our landlady’s not, and I’ve made it very clear to him that I don’t want any part in that bullshit (and my landlady trusts me on that, thank God), but that doesn’t stop him from still trying to drag me into his battles. He’s being evicted in January, I think, and I’m hoping that his absence will smooth over my last few months there.
So, tl;dr- I will still happily accept any help I can get, because things are still pretty rough, but I’m no longer living in a constant state of panic. <3))